Thursday, 19 September 2013

It's time

I can't say I blame her, she is leaving me.

There was a comment on one of my posts saying that this person was considering transition but in the end she  ( he ) valued the relationship more and decided not to transition. 

If this is what brought peace to his life then, good, I'm happy for him.

Reading some blogs and forums, to be a woman, you have to xyz. Really ? Don't you have to be you, to be a woman ? Do you have to wear heels, a dress, long hair, polished nails etc ? Is this a requirement ? If it is, someone should tell my sister as she surely can't be female if this is true.

Don't get me wrong, it's what I want, the long hair, nails, heels, but ... dress? Maybe in the future.. But for now, I'm happy, happy that people accept I am female, having long hair, polished nails, the heels and clothes I wear. Socially I get on better, I can look at clothes, lingerie, even other women with out feeling shame, embarrassment and hiding my actions. Because, one day, one day soon, I will have the body I have been watching, wanting for so many years, with the clothes I have only been able to dream of, which will help put right the feelings and thoughts I have had, which has been the reason for my seperation from society. 

As I said, my wife is leaving me. She can see the change in me, the desire to socialize, be part of life and she doesn't want to stop me from doing what must be done. She plans to live locally, so we will remain friends, and socialize together, not changing anything except for the roof over our heads.