Thursday, 25 April 2013

Is that it ?

So, all my (wife's) friends have been td to call me Kimberley. On Monday I sent an email to the directors at work and said I will address the guys on office before my shift ends.

It was accepted very positively by all except for one young lad. The girls IM'ed me and said how brave I was and asked how it felt. Feel, it feels right, that I have put a wrong right at last.

And today, I saw the mental health guys, who couldn't find anything wrong !!! Such a good week !!!

Sunday, 21 April 2013

Thought for the day

After councilling on Friday, I have decided its time, time to drop my male name and start using my feminine name.

Friends and (wife's) family are happy to do as I wish but I have concerns about work as it will affect not only people I work with but customers.

I think I need to confirm if there are gender policies at work before I say anything at work.

On a different note, how is my marriage seen in a court of law being a woman married to a woman... Especially as ( as far as I can find out ) same sex marriage is still a no no...

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

Thought for the day

All through my life I have had depression, and occasionally thoughts about killing my self.

One Christmas in particular I set light to some Christmas decorations, at the time it was either burn me, or something else.

After a conversation with my mother, her not wanting 2 daughters, it was a distressing call for both of us.

She said that she sometimes feels like ending it all. I keep telling her to talk to the dr and get counselling but she said the dr is no good.

Aftrr the phone call she txt me to say sorry, and that's when I txt back about my depression and suicidal thoughts.

I haven't heard anything since. I'm really regretting telling her about how I feel...

But now I feel I can't call because she will break down and cry, and with out my father knowing about me, I'm not prepared to put her in that position....

What do I do???

Sunday, 7 April 2013


Watching how to train your dragon tonight, and felt jealous ? Depressed ? Of the girl in the film, wishing I had a body like that...

Thoughts for the day

I have my NHS meeting at the end of the month. For this, I have ordered some clothes from a online catalogue.

My wife said that's the day when we will find out of our relationship will survive or end.

Anyone have any advice on what to do at this meeting ???

Saturday, 6 April 2013


Had another councillor meeting today. We spoke of my past, how my life is, and went through a state of honesty.

Meaning I described my life and what my wife had done.

The councillor said at that moment in time, she felt anger towards my wife, because of what she had done 20 years ago, and then appoligised as she should be non judgmental

In hindsight, over the years, I wish we divorced at that time.