Thoughts

Where do I start. So... It's been a rough week. My wife has difficulty accepting social standards. She also has difficulty watching me transition. She knows its something I must do but she can't watch.

Ok..

She has her own house, just waiting for the final stuff to be done before she moves in.

Then... Monday she took an overdose and ended up in hospital. She is fine medically, no damage but mentally, all she says is that she failed, because she is still here. That she will be all alone. What ever I say, she still says she will be alone. 

She has so many friends who call in, who go running with her, swimming, every day. And she repeatedly says she will be alone. The house is 3 minute drive, 10 minute walk. And I have said she is welcome back for coffee etc, any time but nothing makes any difference.

And I really feel its all my fault. If I wasn't transitioning, she wouldn't be moving out. And I don't know what to do. I'm responsible for her taking an overdose, and I have no one to talk to. It's crap!