Just watching TV, this program, that program, they are mainly sponsored by products for women, makes up, hair products... Then, the adverts between programs, they are mainly aimed at women again, clothes, makeup...
It does what it says on the tin, it makes me want to try it, to see if it makes me beautiful, like the women in the adverts, to make me .. sexy ...
But its difficult, instead of letting go and doing what I want to do, how I want to be, i seem to have gone the other way, to give the impression that i don't feel this way, like, wear the type of shirts which are too big, to give the typical male illusion. instead of a clean shave, as I said previously, I use a beard trimmer not only to keep this illusion but also because I get a rash when i shave.
Yeah, I guess there are products out there, which will solve the rash, but my brother in law gets so much stick for using moisturizer on his face, comments that he is becoming female, I think I would over react and try to convince the accuser is wrong, but by over reacting, might leave some questions behind.
I so wish I had long hair !!!
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