It was a long time ago, I was pushed and in turn I knocked my gf at that time over.
The result was a small cut, but there was so much blood.
It took me out emotionally, I cried, yeah, in French class. I had to leave the class I was feeling so bad.
I haven't felt like that, until today. I was talking to Helen, expressing my thoughts like I have over the past week or so, and, I could see the more I was talking, the more she was getting stressed, having a lot to do and contend with me. knowing how I can be, it just washed over me, the guilt of stressing her further, disturbing her from her work, you name it, I feel that I have caused discontentment ( not sure if that's the right word ).
Even my attempts of trying to improve things was having the opposite effect. And made things worse. I just could not bear to loose her as a friend.
I just feel so ... Agh !